a letter for a flower

2:46 am
i came
you left for a quick shower
you left me alone
mistake
returned in 5 minutes 
felt like an hour
me
on a verge to a mental breakdown
the sweet urge for a mental breakdown
did some Wim Hof to fight it
broke down after the third try
- the point is - why

recalled your name from the conversation
and some other name from the conversation

but it was you who i bit recklessly
was you who answered my letters
you who spit on me takin the train

- i dodged

now the fog fell on bat country and tomorrow i wont remember your name

so just to remind myself
for tomorrow
and every tomorrow
its you 
who i wanna tear